They say everything happens for a reason and I believe that's true.
The day was a bit of a mess and it started with the fact that I had forgotten my map of where I was going. This led to getting on the wrong tram in the wrong direction. Instead of asking someone, anyone, for directions, I figured a couple of hours to find my way would be sufficient. Or not? I had two appointments about 15 minutes away from each other and I booked them way too close together. By the time it was 5pm, the first appointment time, I had given up on finding that house. I made my way to the second because I at least remembered where I was supposed to be getting off there. That's where the memory ends. How am I feeling like grandma at the age of 30-something? I thought I at least remembered the vague route. What did the ad say, 2 minutes to the beach? I knew exactly where that was! Logical pattern in the city planning so I start to walk the grid. It was getting way too dark in a strange neighbourhood and where I come from, girls don't play this game. I walked for about 20 minutes and finally stop at the first place that was open, a church. It was dark in the long corridor but at the end of the hall I saw a light. I walked in and was asked how I was. Lost. That's for sure. She didn't know where my destination street was either. Turns out that room led to the library so the internet saved the day again and we realized we were only 2 streets away!
When I finally arrived at the house, I took a quick tour and then sat down for an interview of sorts. I wasn't expecting that. It really became a conversation about what I was doing here in Melbourne. I gave the usual response - I'm here on a work/travel visa and I hope to settle here for the winter, save up some cash and then get out and travel some of Australia and New Zealand and maybe hit up a little of Asia and then go home.
She told me about the year she was 21 and left with some money in the bank and started her travels around the world. She was just so passionate about the places she went and what she did as she told the story. She asked again, "What are you doing here?!" If the purpose was ultimately to go home, what's the point of actually going anywhere? Shouldn't it be about the journey? The point of travelling shouldn't be to check off that master list of places you want to see if you're not experiencing the culture, the food, the atmosphere and the people around you. She was right. Why did I travel 16,000 km if I was just going to go work 9 to 5 in an office? It's not like it was something I hadn't thought of or heard before, but I needed to be reminded.
So in the end, this random woman whose house I was just planning on living in was not only telling me that I wasn't getting the room but that I should leave the city as well! I left energized and ready to pack my bags. Rational Loreto is coming out though and messing it all up. In the meantime, I've been trying to figure out what to do next. If I go, Melbourne will be here when I get back and the likelihood is that it will be much warmer so should I set my sights on the travel pages?
Am I too young to have a mid-life crisis? I'm being so bloody indecisive on what I want to do. *sigh*
Better question: If I am having an early mid-life crisis, why am I writing this on the internet?!